 The best day in one’s life is realizing that you are not here to mourn, but to be happy. That you are able to stop and smell the flowers around. That you are able to laugh so hard at small jokes. That you are capable of loving the unlovable. That you are able to smile in spite of the troubles. That you are able to forgive others. And that you are able to have unconditional time with your loved ones. Creating inner peace begets outer peace. Thursday, August 26, 2010  HUHUHUUHHUHU!! I hope I can go to Cebu City this coming week.. soooo worried and all.. i really want to go with them.. PLEASE3X Lord!! huhuhuhuhuh Sunday, August 22, 2010  Today is August 22, 2010. Believe it or not, its our anniversary :) And I am so happy because we've gone this far. This was actually a LOVE which blossomed from an unexpected place. Unexpected time. Unexpected people. I have always been afraid to get hurt. To try once more that fishy thing called Loving. I have always been scared to trust someone else because Im afraid of falling off from the ground with no one's catching me around. But despite of all the fears I have inside, I dared. I dared to trust someone else. I dared to love. A one year relationship with my boyfriend is an achievement for me, for us. Its about more of appreciation. Understanding. Acceptance. and of deeper love. He is a blessing. An answered prayer. I know deep inside our very hearts, we'll learn to face more with confidence all the odds that will come our way hand in hand.. Lord I LOVE YOU. Thank you for hearing my prayers. HAPPY ANNIVERSARY NGIT KO :) Friday, March 26, 2010  One of the highlights of Davao City today is the Mary Rose Carnival located at Maa Road near the NCCC Mall of Davao. It is a place where you can really bond with your friends, family and other loved ones. Mary Rose Carnival is one of the major carnival arenas in this city. That is why it is populated with people of all ages every night. Its rides consist of the Roller Coaster, Octopus Ride, the Sea Dragon, Carousel, Bump Cars, Ferris wheel and lots of Peryahan inside. They are also showcasing the Motorcycle Riders in their Wall of Death wherein the riders are amazingly showing off their skills. The most deadly ride for me there is the Sea Dragon. It is a huge ship-like structure where the head of the dragon lies in both ends of the ship. It can cater up to 50 passengers and you will go swinging in the air as it starts to take off. I decided to sit on the very edge of the ship because they said that the thrill lies there. There will be this huge metal bar as a barrier or protection for you not to slip off the ship. As the engine starts, I also can feel the adrenalin rush in me. And it’s really true, as the swinging of the ship goes faster, my heart too pumps greater and the fear in me really weakens my entire system. And from there, I conclude that I am afraid of heights. The other passengers’ voices add up to the tension as they too feel the frightening feeling brought about by that scary dragon ship. What frightens me the most is the thought that any moment the ship keeps on swaying, there might be a possibility that the metal barrier might be unlocked and that gives a reason for the passenger to fall off. A Really scary thought. Next to the number one scariest ride for me is, the Octopus Ride. As it turns round and round, fast-faster-fastest and the passenger will really be scared because there is this instance that the person in-charge of that ride will decide to get more passenger and when the moment that machine stops, you are there up high, swinging sideways for about a minute and you got all the time to fall off your seat. Since it was my first ride, I kept on screaming and screaming when I experienced that moment. I don’t know what to do and it feels like the only way to comfort my nerves is to scream up to the top of my lungs. I even sinfully shouted for all the bad words in this earth. Just imagine how scared I was during that moment. And the last on my list of the scariest ride is the Roller Coaster Ride. It was just actually not too long, and it only functions in two rounds. What scares me the most was the moment the roller coaster goes higher and yet slowly, but afterwards it goes down very, very fast with no idea of where it was going. I decided to sit on the very front seat, because I want to experience the THRILL. The carnival bonding is really fun and exciting. It adds up to my list of my best visited places in Davao this summer. You better try it on and experience all the thrill and fun I have experienced. Tuesday, February 2, 2010 "The world is not at all times in favor of you." This is what I have personally discovered these past days. And its really a tough one to deal with other people around you, especially if the one you're dealing with is someone whom you actually wanted to please. We actually dont have to please everybody, the world needs our originality and its always up to that person whether he/she can accept you as to who you really are. It kinda upsets me, knowing that what I have shown good is still really not enough for others so that they will not judge - negatively. hehehehe.. bsta, kinda feeling down lang these past days jud. But the half of me is still feeling grateful for the wonderful people who accept me as to who I really am. My family. My bestfriend Cherry. My boyfriend Dudz. and GOD :) Saturday, December 19, 2009    a song which really makes me live life beyond the limits :) CLICK the title to listen to the song: MAGIC MIRROR by tiffany thorton Watching the night set in, tomorrow's a brand new day again Full of twists and turns you'll never know, and great surprises And nothing is black and white, with so many colors in this light Take a brush and paint what's in your dreams, a perfect picture I'm looking at my reflection, for the answer to the question Make a wish tonight, and see the twinkle in the rain There's magic if you close your eyes, so all you have to do is believe the impossible And wish upon my magic mirror Believe in miracles, so dreamers always dream forever, forever Possibilities in your hand, Adventures waiting far off land Full of twists and turns you'll never know second chances So catch a falling star, and keep it close hold it in you heart And it will shine a light in the dark, and make things clearer I'm looking at my reflection, for the answer to the question Make a wish tonight, and see the twinkle in the rain there's magic if you close your eyes So all you have to do is believe the impossible, and Wish upon my magic mirror Believe in miracles, so dreamers always dream forever, forever Take a chance cuz you can and you will see all the possibilities If you try you will find all the treasure hidden underneath your feet Make a wish tonight, and see the twinkle in the rain There's magic if you close your eyes, so all you have to do is believe the impossible And wish upon my magic mirror Believe in miracles, so dreamers always dream forever, forever Other songs i like: CLICK THE TITLE :) FLY AWAY by alyson stone FLY TO YOUR HEART by selena gomez GIFT OF A FRIEND by demi lovato TAKE TO THE SKY by jordan pruitt ROSE TO PARADISE by jordin sparks SOMEDAY MY PRINCE WILL COME by tiffany thornton PIXIE DUST live.laugh.love. enjoi life. meri xmas. Sunday, December 6, 2009  I have been on another trip today. Its searching for the simple yet sweet moments in my life. Realizing things and pondering on it. Isn't it great to take notice the simple moments in our life, rather than focusing sooo much on the chaos of the world?! I will be rating my these simple moments I have experienced today. These moments do really made me smile and touched my heart in so many ways. a.) Its so nice to hear my mother's laughter. She was actually watching tv and was tuned in to her favorite afternoon show. I was in my bedroom and she was in their bedroom, and I just paused for a while upon hearing her laughter. It kinda mesmerized me and I realized that laughters are really good to hear than sobbing tears. I hope that my mom will continue to laugh and be happy, really happy with her life. I love my mom soo much! :) b.) I was excited for the morning to come into night. Why? Because I just bought a glow in the dark lollipop for my nephew and niece. Upon giving them the candies, they both gave me a hug and say a simple yet so sweet thank you. And I love it! I love that moment. I love to think that kids are the most happy people on earth. When you give them candies, its like they will love you forever. c.) I just finished doing the laundry. And my father went inside, while I was eating in our dinner table. He asked me if Im tired and I said "YES!" It was actually a sarcastic answer I gave. We were not in good terms lately because the other night, I went home late. Upon hearing my answer, my dad just gave me a big hug and asked me If I still have my vitamins. That moment is sooo simple yet soo sweet. Because eventhough I get soo stubborn, still my dad learns to forgive and understands :) d.) Its always nice to think and feel the love of your partner. His iloveyou messages really fascinates me :) I woke up in my afternoon nap when I checked my phone and surprised to see two messages from him. It always excites me everytime I receive texts from my sweet boyfriend. And I will be loving him, no matter what it takes :) e.) My sister prepared my champorado for me :) And it always a surprising moment everytime she does it. Either prepare my milk or hug me and kiss me on my cheek eventhough I am still sooo sleepy :) f.) My friend texted me that she loves her work. She just told me that she loves what she's doing. She is bound to market the suncellular sims. It made me think that its so nice to know that there are people who enjoys their work eventhough its not a work that is related with fame and fortune. Its not all the time that we take notice of these simple events in our life. And I came to realize that its always good to practice being one. Share the love and give more love. MERRY CHRISTMAS,Not a lip service, but a prayer. From the my heart to yours. :) Saturday, November 28, 2009  I just want to share to all my blog readers(if there are any.hehe) about the happiness I'm currently experiencing with my love life. I am in a relationship with this guy whom I never thought would become a part of my life. I had an encounter with this guy during our class in Finance and I hated him so much because he did not actually showed up during our reporting day,because we we're group mates that time. And he was a total stranger for me those times. I really scolded him and cursed him for what he done the moment he showed up the next day. The next semester came and I never got a clue that I will be going to share the same room for the next five months of our lives. It was our class in Corporate Social Responsibility. I never thought that as time passed by, my feelings for this guy will detour to another route. The route of liking and eventually.. loving him. He was sitting in front of me, so I always had a glimpsed of his existence that actually disturbed my focus on listening with our discussions. From simple hellos to brief talks up to the moment he started to get along with our group. I continued my concealed feelings for him, for I know that its not proper for girls to show up interests with the guy they like. Which is actually the hardest part of being a girl hehe. From the ktv bonding moments up to the eating sessions, I always have that hidden agenda on my mind about him. I secretly stared at him and even studied his moves. My world seems to die the moment I thought that this guy do likes my best friend. Im so much trying to be ok and that I never showed up any hurt feelings or bitterness towards my bestfriend because I know, in the first place that...I don't own him. I tried to show up happiness for my bestfriend but I really cannot control the aches inside of me.. So there I was, crying. Weeks passed by and I started to exchanged texts with this guy. From afternoon texts till dawn. I really enjoyed his company. Plus the fact that he's always there to listen even to the most nonsense words I might say. I cannot totally explain the whole incident but it all appeared to me like a thunder. hehehe and I hope it will not disappear too just like a thunder. I am happy with him. And on the 30th of November, will be our hundredth day. I know for some that this is just a common love, a same old story wherein the end will always come. I DONT CARE. Yes, I do have my fears and traumas. But its always a good thing to trust once again. Because its always by trying that we all learn and find out the answer. I promise to myself that I will really take good care of this love.. Of this relationship with this man. No matter what it takes, I always believe in the miracles of LOVE. +MIRACLES ARE FROM GOD+ i.l.ov.e.y.o.u. s.a.n.t.i.a.g.o .b.a.l.i.u.ag. III _ngit082209_ Thursday, October 22, 2009  THANK YOU SO MUCH MY LORD.. for this day and for everyday. thank you for my family. thank you for my given-talents and wisdom. thank you for my capability to love and share it with others. thank you for my boyfriend. thank you for allowing me to breath once more. thank you for hearing my prayers. thank you for giving strength each time i needed it the most. thank you for the patience. thank you for the courage to go on with every struggles. thank you for the positivity i bear in every negativity that occurs. thank you for the answers. thank you for carrying me through. thank you Lord for the good grades i got this sem, although those grades are not that high enough but atleast its not that bad. thank you for the understanding i bear. thank you for my friends. thank you for dudz' family. thank you for allowing our path to meet. thank you for my sisters. thank you for my mom and dad. thank you for the trials, coz i always believe i can make it always with YOU. thank you for the forgiveness. THANK YOU LORD GOD FOR THIS LIFE!!!! YOU ARE THE GREATEST OF ALL. ILOVEYOU SOOOOO MUCH. :) ((i am so happy, because i have been praying that dudz and i will not get any failing grades for this sem. and we didnt really get any. prayers are really powerful. as powerful as your heart and mind could ever believe. so keep on walking with HIM). ngit_082209 Wednesday, October 7, 2009  I can't really explain why I soOo much like Peter Pan, so as his fairy tale adventure. I always loved to watch his story over and over again and I'd rather choose to hear his fairy tale books than any other tales in the world. Its just that his story has a magical effect on me. It mesmerizes me every time I hear about Peter Pan flying to Neverland with his Wendy and also with the company of Tinkerbell (the tiny-pretty- fairy in the story). I've really got a huge crush with Peter Pan, and if you'd ask me whose character I want to portray in the story, well its not Wendy nor Captain Hook, but its TINKERBELL. I even can't explain furtherly why, but its just that I like his character so well. She's cute and a kind of "maldita" hehehe.. That inspite of her "maldita" character she's still been loved by Peter Pan. But the sad part of Tinkerbell's story is that Peter Pan and her will never really become one, I mean that no love story will ever grow between them because Peter Pan loves somebody else and that is Wendy.. I am just wonderin', is the guy I have right now will be the man I will have for the rest of my life? Or this will just be a fairy tale that will soon end? (''_ I have been harsh with him for these past weeks, and I dont know why. Maybe because its just another mood swings in me. And I just hope he gets to understand me everytime I am having my mood swings. I hope he will never get tired of loving me no matter what personality I have. I tell you guys, this is the first time that I have been acting so harsh with my boyfriend. I used to be a sweet girlfriend before and getting jealous is not really included in my character. But what is it with me now that made me jealous when he comes nearer with this another girl?? I actually trust him but I just can't control my emotions whenever I feel jealous. Just like Tinkerbell, I hope i can sooner manage my temper. But I hope I won't be like Tinkerbell, whose love for PeterPan will never get a chance. I hope that what I have now with Santi is a love story worth keeping and worth fighting. There's no right one when the real one comes along. And as they say, love stories lasts forever by being the right one for the person you choose to love. :) ngit_082209 Wednesday, September 2, 2009  Jealousy is not the same thing as love. Sometimes, people think that by feeling jealous about someone, they are loving them. Jealousy is not love, its the fear and anger of losing love. Jealousy disappears when you are truly loving yourself and others for whatever experience you're having. So how does one handle jealousy? Understanding the emotion is one. Jealousy is usually a combination of fear and anger; a fear of losing something or someone, and anger that someone is "moving in on" something that you feel belongs only to you. You need to allow yourself to actually "feel" the emotion in a healthy way. When you start feeling jealous, ask yourself: is it more fear-based, or more anger-based? Recognize which part of your body is being affected. If you feel a dropping or clutching sensation in your stomach, its probabyly fear. If you feel a burning, tight sensation in your shoulders and jaw, then you are likely feeling anger. You might also feel a combination of those sensations. Changing any false beliefs that might cause jealousy is the best way to handle it. There are often false beliefs that underlie jealousy and fuel emotion. If you examine the belief, many times, you can eliminate the jealousy. Beliefs are changeable. If you change your belief, you change the way you feel. Choose to tell yourself a belief that is nurturing and supportive, and you'll feel better. When you begin taking steps to creating a happy and fulfilling life for yourself, you will find the anger, the jealousy and the fear will disappear. Dont listen to people who make you jealous. Learn to be happy with yourself and what you have. Everyone is different and each person has their good and bad qualities. Realize that you have the potential to create a better future. _God speed_ ;) Sunday, August 23, 2009  I thought love was just a mirage of the mind, it's an illusion, it's fake, impossible to find. But the day I met you, I began to see, that love is real, and exists in me. :) _dudz_ Thursday, August 20, 2009  im really not ok. i wish i could make myself better, i wish i could cast a spell onto my self and allow that spell to vanish the confusions and sadness i have inside. im not over reacting, its just that ..im sad! i feel so sick.. of everything. i wanna cry out so desperately or to sing out loud the pains inside. i wanna run on to a perfect friend who can understand what i feel and who would intently listen to me in every anguish and weariness i might explode. i love him!! and it seems so vague. i dont know if he feels the same way or is it just a mere "friendship" for him. i hate her! because she keeps on telling lies to me. she keeps on creating stories just to attract the listeners. and i dont know what to do! i dont know how to approach her and tell her that i hate how she betrays me. i hate this sickness! i wanna get well and stand up again with confidence. i dont want people to talk about my sickness. i hate going home! same issues are being talked about. and i felt ignored. i feel sooo tired of everything. of caring so much about certain issues, i hate it! it stresses me up. i hate confusions! i just wanna laugh out loud and wake up each day with a better reason and purpose. i want to live a simple life, a life without issues. i want to do the things i want to do without the judgments of other people. i dont want fame, i dont want popularity or whatsoever. i want TRUE FRIENDSHIP! TRUE LOVE! help me God. please. Sunday, August 2, 2009 It is my friends who made the story of my life. In a thousand ways they have turned my limitations into beautiful privileges and enabled me to walk serene and happy in the shadow casted by my deprivation. My friends are my oasis, encouraging me to go on. They are essential to my well-being. Thank you for everything. I could never afford to lose any of you. "Only friendship leave footprints in our hearts." I love these creatures. our differences made our friendship unique. I really feel that "I belong" with them. :)    Wednesday, July 29, 2009  single single single. hmmm.. it ain't bad at all. having no boyfriend around, no monthsaries to celebrate and no LQ's.. aaah!! what a peace of mind, hehehehe. singlehood is actually a state in my life where i am able to reflect on things, on the going-on's of my life and on pampering myself with more more love, and also on spending more time with my family and friends. long before, i thought that being single is a curse. but eventually, i learned the contrary: being in a relationship is a curse, haha! just kiddin' anyway. actually, i have learned a lot from L-O-V-E. the "give and take" you need to practice in a relationship, the open communication channels you need to implement and so on, and so forth. i am actually an active love student. hehehe! that's why i can say that i have learned a lot from my past love experiences, as the saying goes: experience is the best teacher. certainly true enough! but then, im not a love guru or love expert, as what my friends would tease me. its just that i view the lessons clearly and learn from it all with positivity. i guess that's the good cycle one must experience. my singlehood thought me to ponder on things. just like about my dream career and learning to gain the "real" happiness. it gives me the chance of turning the focusing lens to my "SELF", it upgrades my thinking and gives me wider realizations on life, and also helps me to become more optimistic about outlooks in life. with all of those, i learn to love myself even more. which actually is really important: learn to love yourself first before giving a mere part of yourself to a stranger. for now, i've been focusing on my studies. as what i have mentioned on my past blog contents, i really wanted to graduate from college.marching up through the aisle wearing black robes with my parents on both sides. though im single, i still enjoy sight-seeing boys out there, hehehehe! crushes are means of enjoyment. (laughing-out-loud) it gives me the chance to realized, too, that i should not rush on things. just like in love, we should never rush on to it. there are many fish in the sea, and we always know that the right person for us will really come at the right time, right circumstances and at the right place. that's the good implication of finally having the right person. eveything on earth has its own time, learn to wait for that perfect time and you will find joy forever. so don't be sad if you are single at the moment. the wise persons would think that "singlehood nowadays is an option, not a chance". grow, learn and feel the love of your family, friends, and GOD. those are the best love i ever felt in this universe. stay happy! -lotz- Tuesday, July 28, 2009  FIASCO- (n.) A complete or ridiculous failure of any pretentious undertaking. Admit it, we are all scared of failing. And as much as possible, we really do our best to avoid it and aim in excelling at all times. Yes I am one of those who are afraid of downfalls. I always wanted to be appreciated, to be the best in the field I am taking, to look... perfect, to be viewed as a person with substance. I hated being degraded and being conceived as "stupid". But you really cannot predict fate and what we are really doing in the present affects or determines the future. If we choose to become lazy at present, eventually tomorrow will never be that brighter as you expect it to be. But if you embark on being industrious now, you will SOON harvest the fruits of you labor. Because of confusions, I choose to be idle. Unlike others who are willing to go on and adapt easily from the changes around. And that idleness drowned me, making me feel pre-occupied of the thought that... "nothing will still happen". So what do everyone expected: I was in the middle of my fiasco. The road I was walking seemed so vague. The judgments of other people is an added reason of choosing to hide from reality. I hated the wicked words and the degrading thoughts being thrown upon. But actually, it did not take long for me to ponder and realized on things. GOD really do loves me, by putting wonderful people in my life. As I go along, the fiasco that I was expereincing turned out to be the motivator within me to help myself to live once again. Strength and courage were just around, it was I who ignored it. Opening my mind from these instances gave me the chance of breathing LIFE once more. Of UNDERSTANDING life. Of ACCEPTING life. And of living it to the fullest. I learned to understand the waves of life, its ups and downs, its twists and turns. I learned to appreciate more the essence of this gift and to learn to love myself even more. Yes I experienced all of those. My faith became stronger. And with it, fiasco's didn't frighten me anymore. But it does not mean that I love experiencing failures, its just that I learned how to TRUST HIM. Trust Him with everything and anything. As what Kuya Kim says: Ang buhay ay weather-weather lang. (saying this with a smile) The one who allows himself to be drowned with uncertainties, is the one who eventually looses the battle. Learn to stand up, fight and trust the Creator. And one day, you will really be amaze of how you have went through all the struggles of your life. What matters most in the end is how you learn and accept things and eventually decided to continued the journey. **BE HAPPY** Monday, July 27, 2009  Boredom is the stage where you actually doesn't know what to do at the moment. And yes, it can kill! (lol) And due to curious people surrounding me, they've been asking me what's the best thing to do to procrastinate. I am actually not a procrastination master or guru because I guess my answer for that question is also just the same answers of many people around me. When boredom strikes, I actually do the "common things" in that moment. Like eating, sleep sleep sleep, read a book and surf the web. Ok let's start with my first boredom fighter, EATING. Eating is actually an exercise. hehe Yes it really is! It exercises our jaws and mind. Because chewing enables the jaws to do the necessary movements and choosing the right food to eat exercises our mind,our mental capacity to function at times of dullness. (hehehe) I really go with foods that are sweet, most probably chocolates. And citrus fruits, too. Because sweets and citrus food activates our adrenalin, allowing our body to become alive, awake, enthusiastic (hey!remember that old ice-breaker?! hehehe). NEXT with my list: Sleep sleep sleep.(zZzZz) Sleeping fights boredom (well that's my opinion. haha!) Since you actually don't know what to do, because your bored, the activity of sleeping will help relax your body and allows you to be active on the other side of your world (your dreamssssss). :) But oversleeping can cause beri-beri, that which bloats your feet and arms (its actually from an old belief, haha!). Or if you are still bored with sleeping, mind as well read a book. A good book perhaps! You don'nt want to assume reading a book just for the sake of nothing, right?! It will only waste your time and effort. So read with proper focus and purpose! And you will fight the boredom plus earning more knowledge and eventually become a person with substance. And the MOST effective of all boredom fighters- SURFING THE WEB! The internet has always been a cool dimension for us. Browsing the web will enhance our awareness about soooo many things, it will also heighten our addiction to it (hahaha)! Anyways, Internet offers a lot of boredom fighters. You can enjoy the social networking sites such as Friendster, Multiply, Facebook, etc. These sites offer game applications which can really make you alive and bring you back to your childhood years. (hehehehe) Just like in Facebook, it has its famous game apps like Pet Society which can allow you to have a digital pet (weird ones but guaranteed fun). Another are the FarmBuddy, FarmTown, etc. which allow you to own hectares of land for your farm (or hacienda-could-be, hehehe) without having legal documents and without undergoing standard operating procedures (hahaha!) So c'mon! Be creative. Creative in a way that you'll never really get bored. (hahaha!) Do whatever you want, but hey, do only what is right and just- it's a good implication of practicing your freedom. Enjoy your days ahead. God Bless! :) Sunday, July 26, 2009  We wanted to be accepted by many. We wanted to have the fame. We wanted to have the recognition. We wanted to have the appreciation. We wanted to have the attention. We wanted to have the spotlight. We wanted to have the compliments. Which eventually makes us... useless. worthless. insignificant. undeserving. pointless. unavailing. Why do we so much crave for prestige?! When HUMILITY is better than POPULARITY. When SIMPLICITY is greater than FANCY. When MODESTY is preferrable than HAUGHTY. We're just the ones making our life complicated. Friday, June 19, 2009 It was an unusual day for me and for my batch mates as we marched through the aisle of the hall, dressed in white robes on March 2005. For us, it symbolized the finale of high school life. But beyond the pleasure I felt, perplexity was clothing my mind. As we know, as a fresh high school graduate, you must be able to decide on matters which deal about your next life: the tertiary level and preparing for a future profession. I need to decide as soon as possible. I need to follow up which university I must embark upon. Fortunately, choosing the university I decided to enroll at was a bit easy. I was qualified to study at a state university, and decided to take up Information Technology. Even though I don’t have enormous background about that course, I still took the challenge. Being in a college life is really a tough one. That is where you will gain the personal involvement of the actual world, of grief and fiasco, of gaiety and triumphs. I did quite well during my first and second years of learning. I even got a scholarship grant which really helped me a lot. I was really blessed to have that grant. I was enjoying the prerogatives of being a scholar. I even remembered the hassle-free enrolment procedure I always had, because scholars don’t need to fall in “dead-end” line over the cashier and wait endlessly for your turn. But then, as I continued the locomotion towards my field, I suddenly felt the arduousness of my major subjects. The difficulty and the pressures brought about by my subjects and my “high expectation” professors were some reasons why I was declining. As months passed by, I realized that shifting to another course has become a dilemma. The thought of leaving the university also came on my mind. I was really fascinated of becoming a Newscaster. Mass Communication was my desired course either. But unfortunately, MassComm is not offered in the university I was into. I took up Information Technology because that was the course I hurriedly decided to enroll at. Not knowing that efficiency in logic and arithmetic are also much needed in that program, and those are actually my feebleness. Unlike other well-off students who could wish to transfer from one dimension to another, I myself need to think profoundly about it because there are many things to be considered. Considering that I will be losing my scholarship grant, plus the fact that transferring from another university and pursuing my MassComm affection would really allow me to consign such torments upon the financial status of our family. I do not know what exactly to do. I was puzzled over my circumstances. I was losing my grip. Instead of finding ways to free myself from being screwed up, I procrastinate my time on some online games and eventually ended up being hooked at it. I lose my involvement in my studies and my frailty and confusions were slowly decaying my potentials. Until one day, I finally put an end to my stagnant plight. The thought of wanting to reach for great things in life conveyed me to decide of doing what I needed to do. I left the university and began as a neophyte to another journey. March, April and May are the season of marching through the stage for a diploma. Dressed in a black robe, a student will savor the moment of being proud of one’s self for such an achievement. And I am supposed to be, a graduate of batch 2009. This June, instead of starting for a board exam review or starting for a new career in life, I am going to continue my sailing as a junior student in another university. As what my favorite author quoted out, “dalawang dekada ka lang mag aaral, kung ‘di mo pa pagsisikapan, higit limang dekada ng paghihirap ang kapalit…” {You are just going to study for almost two decades, if you will not strive hard for it, more than five decades of poverty will serve as an exchange...) Two years from now, I know I will be one of those proud graduates. Two years and a month from now, I will going to have the job I have been dreaming of. Two years from now, I will really become what I want myself to be. Planning and deciding for the future should be our priority. And acting on it will lead us to our goals. Believing in our self in spite of adversity is a great weapon for surviving the trials. If only I just believed in my abilities during those confusing times I had, I could have graduated on time. Tuesday, March 3, 2009 I am here in our library mostly procastinating. hehe I'm doing my assignment in Finance which deals with commercial banking. I actually have a lot of ideas popping out in my mind just a while ago. But those ideas all escaped in my thoughts when he entered the library.(i saw my crush):) Am I bein' so childish here again? hehe. I feel like I am reviving my high school days. Chasing for my crushes. Anyway, I've been admiring this guy for almost a week. hehe yes its still a week. I was fascinated by the way he speak and his wit. eventhough he's been known as the smartest guy in our campus still he is humble with it. He's so neat and so simple and is really a good-looking lad for me. He got those cute eyes and everytime he took off his eyeglasses, those eyes he have really made me fall for him more. hehehe He actually caught my eye the moment a debating contest occured in our campus grounds. And to tell you, I really get attracted with smart guys. From that on, everytime I get a glimpse of him, its like adding happiness on my days. Its like my world would stop for a while and after that twinge,it carries me back to reality and giving me the chance to prove myself and persevere in my studies. But sometimes, I would just sit on one nook and think about many things. He can't fall for me. He does not even know me. Its like all I have to do is just be fascinated with his existence and spare the remaining school days to chase for him secretly because sooner, he'll be graduating from this institution. *sigh! Will we ever meet again? Is there any chance for crossroads in the future? hehe I am really under a spell of his existence. Monday, January 12, 2009 I have read the Academic issue of Kalasag that my boyfriend sent me. And I was really excited to scan on through the pages the moment I received it. Your magazine has been an inquisitive thing to me the moment I heard of it from a friend and also the time I read through an internet article that it has been awarded as the Catholic Mass Media Awards Best School Organ. Reading on the articles of your magazine is like peeping on through the portals of your academy. And with that, it made me realize that it’s not really that easy to become one of the cadets. Apart from that, I was amaze by the intelligence that the cadets possessed from the way they genuinely write up to the astonishing artworks the have constructed. They proved to us that they don’t just procure the built of a true man and woman but also the wisdom and faithful heart to go through the limits of their lives. I also like the quotations there which really help me to view life at its best despite of the crucial phases. It guides me to see world from a more realistic point of view. The cover to cover stories of Kalasag has its own potion to open our eyes and heart in accepting the real world. Your magazine is also one I consider the best. More power and break a leg PNPA! Thursday, November 13, 2008 Feasible - (adj.) practicable  Technology is really "in". The prevalence of high-edge gadgets in the world is really unstoppable.From i-phones, super-duper-portable laptops, cool mp5's, playstation and a lot more As I was sitting in a food nook near San Pedro Lachmi street, I remember those days wherein I've been craving for a camera phone. I really wanted to have that gadget before since it offers portability and of course, a "techy-aura". Pinoy are really hooked up in texting and capturing pictures at once.It was just last year wherein I got the chance to own a camera phone. A year went by, and here I am realizing what "practicality" means. The span of time I spent manipulating my camera phone made me realize that, happiness just ends there. I mean, the moment you already have that material possession, there will come this focal point wherein you start again to search for the simplicity of life. You'll start thinking that simplicity will be more preferred and that's where true satisfaction starts to exist. I guess, for humans to be able to learn more from life, must first need to gain all the things that they've been craving for.For them to see, feel and realize that true satisfaction cannot be found there. And that there's no real happiness in those silly stuffs. It's really ok to be "in". But if you'll ask me, I would really prefer the naive way of life. I actually just went to a cellphone store this day and bought a cellphone casing for the 1100 unit(a no-camera unit) I've bought from my friend at the cheap amount of P500.00. I was really eager to buy it because I've decided to sell my camera phone. For practicality.And simplicity. Tuesday, November 11, 2008 Perplexity - (n.) mental agitation; confused state  Weeks before 2nd semester was about to start, I had this feeling of excitement. Excitement which draws me nearer at aiming good, perhaps really better grades for the new sem.Our 2nd sem actually started last October 27, a way earlier than other college universities.I never went to school during the 1st week of the opening of classes, for i know that professors are quite unsure on starting the class discussions. The 2nd week came, and i found myself gettin' so busy at school.Photocopying the needed resources for our class discussions (which causes a sudden decaying movement in my allowance hehe) and reading the needed informations for my first ever report about finance. That week gave me a rushing blast of energy-consuming-period which apparently caused chaos in my time management schedule. And here i am, i found myself quite confused about the going-ons of my life.It seems like i get so tired of everything. Adding up the instance that my father and I are not in good terms due to "coming home late on weekdays". Those past weeks gave me confusions.And up to now, I'm really thinking of ways to change.I want to be alone for a while and care for nobody else, care for nothing, but ONLY to my own self. I've been craving for a peace of mind and privacy cause I really need clarity.Clarity which will really help me to define "myself". Thursday, April 17, 2008 April 11 is my tagged birthdate. and evrytime this day comes, all i ever wanted is to be with the people who mean so much to me. because these people are the reasons why i can say that i'm living my life to the fullest. My family, my friends, my relatives and my boyfriend. and fortunately, i've been with almost all of them when my 20th birthday came. yes, im now 20 years old.. hmm..i think that's not too bad. hehe They always tell me that i don't look like a 20-year old lady. probably because of my height and my "baby-look-face". haha All through my birthdays, this one is really i consider as the most memorable..why? because this was just the moment where my uncles,aunts cousins, lola, good friends and vanjo (my boyfriend) and especially my family were together.Enjoying the night. and that moment was the only time i introduced formally my boyfriend to my father. because i dont just introduced guys to my father.I get nervous everytime i do.Actually, i've introduced my past boyfriend to my father when i turned 18, but it was an informal introduction and i was really forced to do it. and i was not really ready that time to introduced my past boyfriend to my family,since im still not into the idea that i wanted that guy to be forever with. but this time, when i introduced vanjo to my dad, its as if everything goes out well and i was not nervous at all.i feel proud about it. fortunately, my dad accepted the fact, calmly. and i was really amazed..and thankful with that. and i consider it as the greatest gift ever given to me. I'm really happy. and my 20 years of existence taught me to become brave and to understand life and its lessons. God is really there all through my existence. and i know, as i go along with my life's journey, God will still and always be there.. unconditionally.. Praise God. ^^, Sunday, April 13, 2008  computer,programs, algorithms, sleepless nights, incomplete grades.. i was an IT stuedent before.and ive been really experiencing those stuffs ive mentioned above almost everyday of my life as an IT scholar. the term "nosebleeding" is the lingo of the class everytime we do out our projects, assignments, quizzes and exams. but somehow, i do have fun. doing crazy stuffs with my co-students are irreplaceable. but ive decided to stop the fight.not because i really can't do it anymore but because i just cant view where im at.and my family is really expecting so much about me. my decision of transferring to another course and school is one of those i consider as tough decision.its not easy you know, bein in the course for almost 3 years and suddenly you've finally just realized that you dont really belong in it. the heck!! time wasted, especially the efforts ive exerted.im not a looser. i may be a loser for some people but the hell i care with their dumb judgements. . right now, im into business administration major in financial management. im living my life as one of the uicians.and i can say that ive adjusted to the surroundings, to the people and even to my new field. its not easy making a decision.but as long as you can sleep well at night, that's the right thing to realize that you've made the right one.. ^^,  tomorrow? is it really the day i've been waiting for?! i cant hardly believe it. its getting nearer. *sigh!* im not excited.im just nervous! as in! its like my heart is pumping out. im nervous because...im scared! scared he might not be the same person i used to know. scared he might tell me something that would end up everything. especially these feelings that keeps on bothering me every now and then. my entire waiting moment taught me to be patient and hopeful.especially taught me te be brave.brave enough to handle such consequences. i got my phone and checked it out if his phone is on. and fortunately, it was ringing. so i texted him and sadly, ive got no reply. ive got a lot of questions.and again, questions that bother me.same issues just like before. i try so hard to look at every brighter side of these dark situations. and evry time i do, i usually end up with a shattered heart and hope. ive got no clue on what will really happen. all i know is that im bounded with each others love and promises. that sooner, he'll still be the same guy i used to love and who loves me in return. that very same guy who promises one thing, that "he'll come back to me". marriage is a girl's greatest dream. and i am one of those girls who loves to reach that thought someday. being with the guy you dreamed of having..for the rest of your life..nothing beats that feeling. everytime i ended up my relationship with someone, i always and really look forward for a new beginning.and in every hope of starting a life again, i silently pray that i'd finally meet him along the way. People do really get tired.tired of handling pains.if that's waht it takes to be truly brave, i'd prefer to be weak.weak enough to be cuddled by someone. weak enough to be held by someone.weak enough to accepted by that one. than to be strong and acually really don't own anyone.. [i wrote this one when the moment my boyfriend and i will see each other again.that time, i really am trapped in the melancholy. but the moment we get the chance to see each other again, all i wrote here proved me wrong.and i am so happy that we are getting stronger.. ^^,) Sunday, November 18, 2007  hi guys! here are the 12 months of the year.. I know you would always love to know yourself better.. Scan on through your birthmonth and prove to the world that you're a one unique being.. JANUARY: Pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive. Down-to-Earth. Stubborn. FEBRUARY: Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexiest out of everyone. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest And loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Horny. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions. MARCH: Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Great kisser. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Observant and assesses others. APRIL: Suave and compromising. Funny and humorous. Stubborn. Very talkative. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does work well with others. Very confidant. Sensitive. Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Able to cheer everyone up and/or make them laugh. Able to motivate oneself and others. Understanding. Fun to be around. Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality. Secretive. Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure and travelling. Systematic. Hot but has brains. MAY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High-spirited. JUNE: You've got the best personality and are an absolute pleasure to be around. You love to make new friends and be outgoing. You are a great flirt and more than likely have an a very attractive partner. A wicked hottie. It is also more than likely that you have a massive record collection. You have a great choice in films, and may one day become a famous actor/actress yourself - heck, you've got the looks for it!!! JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Spazzy at times. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes lon! g to recover. AUGUST: Outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on attention. No self-control. Kind hearted. Self-confident. Loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful. Easy to get along with and talk to. Has an "every thing's peachy" attitude. Likes talking and singing. Loves music. Daydreamer. Easily distracted. Hates not being trusted. BIG imagination. Loves to be loved. Hates studying. in need of "that someone". Longs for freedom. Rebellious when withheld or restricted. Lives by "no pain no gain" caring. Always a suspect. Playful. Mysterious. "charming" or "beautiful" to everyone. stubborn. curious. Independent. Strong willed. A fighter. SEPTEMBER: Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have many friends. Enjoys to make love. Emotional. Stubborn. Hasty. Good memory. Moving, motivates oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore. Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can understand. OCTOBER: Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the centre. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Unpredictable. Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all. NOVEMBER: Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, the greatest men are born in this month. If you ever begin a relationship with someone from this month, hold on to them because their one of a kind DECEMBER: This straight-up means you are the most good-looking person possible... Better than all of these other months! Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive in everything. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. One guy/girl kind of person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves music. Pretty/handsome. Lov! es to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive. Tuesday, November 6, 2007  Hacking is an unauthorized use of computer and network resources. And the term “hacker” originally meant a much gifted programmer. With their capability of easier access to multiple systems, it is now has a negative implication. I read through the various cases of hacking and found out that it became a serious crime in most other countries. But when it is done by request and under a contract between an ethical hacker and an organization, it’s alright. I got confuse because the term “hacker” has been referred to as a “cracker”. I’ve learned that the basic difference is that hackers build things and crackers break them. Unfortunately, a lot of people confuse the terms “hacker” and “cracker”. And I have searched for a number of reasons for this and the two BIG reasons are: Crackers often call themselves ‘hackers” and the media refers to crackers as hackers. Hackers generally like to think of themselves as an elite group of information seekers who are EXPERT at exploring computer systems and networks. Hacking into network computer systems is illegal. But hackers believe it is morally acceptable as long as a hacker does NOT commit theft, vandalism or breach any confidentiality, as this is included in the so-called hacker code of ethics. All hackers follow a code of ethics. Those who break into computer systems with wicked intent are known in the hacking world as CRACKERS. For hackers possess a great deal of knowledge of computers and generally write their own hacking programs, while crackers tend to be “young and unskilled”. Crackers do most of their cracking by downloading free hacking software from hacking Web sites. They lack the technical skills of hackers so crackers are considered dangerous because of their irresponsible use of artificial software. I have read an article over the internet about a news hour interview of a hacker named Lopht Wedge, and he stated “if we can share what we’ve learned with everybody and then publish it, that’s great. With his statement, I have proved that not all hackers somehow aim at making material gains. Many hackers believe it is their responsibility to seek out security holes in computer networks so that systems administrators may fix them and won’t result to bigger chances of defects in the future. Victor Faur, the person who has been accused of breaking into the computers of some organizations did NOT commit theft. For his action was aim only at proving that several computers are capable of attacks and had not tried to make any material gains. For me, Faur is a hacker, the one in which we referred to as expert and “elite”. He never admitted that he neither modified nor erased the files, nor destroyed the communication systems. In my own view, the only thing he missed to do is that he never done it by request and under a contract between him and the organization. But the act he did, is ethically acceptable for me. Sunday, September 30, 2007  Just last Saturday, September 29, 2007, I wasn't really feeling well. I'm suffering from colds and flew and my head was quite aching because of "over-sleeping" hehe. I just really doesn't know what to do and I really get bored that time. I turned the television on, then turned it off again, went back to my room, read, stop reading, stuffs like that. I really doesn't know what to do at that time. I even kept on changing my cellphone casing.I wanted to text my other friends but I don't have any cellphone load at all. Around 6 pm, my mother was cooking dinner for us and she told me to buy "paminta". So, I hurried on and I even got my coin purse and spent my last penny for a cellphone load. Even though its not really necessary to reload, still I did. Around 8 pm, somebody missed call me. And at that time, I was on my bedroom and was about to take a rest. I texted the unknown number and asked who he is. Immediately the recipient replied and said "Lot, vanjo ni..pwede ka mka return call dri..Mghulat ko, pwde karon daun? ", those were the exact words he typed in, hehe. Upon reading that message, I really over reacted. I don't know if its really true or was it just another foolish stuff bein' played over by some people who are really crazy. But beyond that, I believe it's him. The way he texts and the letter L which is always been in capital form is really his style of texting. I believe its him, BUT I JUST CAN'T BELIEVE IT! (hehe did you get what I mean?!).I never expected that he'll text me on that day. I was running to my sister and let her read the text message and she too can't believe in it. I was crying.Crying for joy and other unexplainable feelings I felt within me.My hands were even shaking when I was making my reply to that message telling him to wait for a while because I'll be purchasing another load to be able to make a return call.Because my load at that time is only for text purposes (you know the GAANTEXT10 haha). Thanks to my friend ASHBURY and even to my cousin ATE RACHEL for providing me the load I needed. Because during those time, I really can't afford a load because I've already spent all my money. And finally, I was able to hear his voice. Vanjo's voice.The one I love. The one that I've been longing to be here with me again. VAN JOSHUA FLORES. ='p Unexplainable feelings, mixed emotions, UNEXPECTED moment of the day. But indeed, one of the happiest. We talked for about 8 minutes and within that span of time, I let him feel how much I love him and how much I'm willing to still wait for him and vice versa =').After the call, we even got the chance to exchange messages.Just few text messages.But those messages are enough for me to be truly happy. He's assuring me over and over again that he'll come back to me.And I'm really glad about that assurances. ='p It really soothes me. I so much love that man. Being together with each other might be impossible but that will never really be a reason for me to forget him and just throw away the promises I left him. I love vanjoshua flores. ='p And that day, gives me enough strength to wait for him. (for those who doesn't know, vanjoshua flores is my boyfriend and is now having his 4-year-training at Phil.National Police Academy, Camp Mariano Silang Cavite. It's his first year of training there and first years are called as "PLEBES" or "PLEBO" and are not allowed to use cellphones and its really seldom for them to communicate with their loved-ones.) hehehe pasagdi na lng ko people huh, sa mga makabasa ani na entry, over react lng jud ata ko but Im really happy.. huhu Thursday, September 20, 2007  In the altar of matrimony, the priest said "Now, you are united as one.. let no man put asunder.. For richer or for poorer, in sickness and in health, till death do us part, etc.." These are the commitments that each couple vowed to each other during a wedding ceremony. And as they seal the marital knot with a kiss, the couple signed the papers that will put their single blessedness to a halt. But nowadays, we can see a lot of unfaithful husbands and wives.The philandering husbands maintaining several mistresses and 2nd families or more.In the news there are a lot of women caught by their respective husbands playing with fire, some even with their "kumpare", old flame, friend or even brother-in-law. Even some movie stars and celebrities change partners as often as they want to. As if it becomes a natural thing. What drive them to be unfaithful? Some says the fault lies in the nagger wife, the drunkard husband, attitude differences or just fall out of love or no longer happy with the relationship. Are these reasons enough for one to find a new love or lust? What is happening? Have we lose our morals? Did we give somebody the slip to invade this in our society? Did our society allow this to develop in our midst? Is this the legacy that we will leave to our children and the future generation? Divorce, legal separation and annulments cases filed are increasing. Most of the reasons given are deception, psychological incapacity, etc.But before the wed, there are a lot of seminars to be taken as part of the marriage licensing requirements.One of this is pre-cana or marriage counseling, where the couple is prepared and advised of what they are into, a lifetime commitment. Either you have been engaged long enough or short term, it doesn't matter. You will only know thoroughly your partner once you lived with him or her. Of course, the good side came before and during the engagement and the bad came after the wedding, but you married this somebody for life as sanctioned by the laws of the land and blessed by the Lord above. I don't argue with some who said, "what's the use of continuing the relationship if it doesn't work." You just have to accept the best and the worst of him/her. Just remember all the rosy days in your married life and the fruits that were born out of this union... ..your children.. and you will live happily ever after.. =') Thursday, September 6, 2007  I was surfing the net yesterday looking for fairies images when my friend Mark, sat down beside me and asked what I'm doing.I said, "nangita ko ug fairies na mga pictures", (I'm looking for pictures of fairies).He then exclaimed, "Nag blog hunt ko the other day bah, then nakakita ko atong isa ka blog na naay "fairy" na topic.kuyaw kaayo tong picture didto sa fairy kay kanang tinuod jud gni sya.As in! " (I was having a blog hunt the other day, then I saw one blog and one of the topic of that blog is about fairies.The picture of the fairy there is real.) As I was listening intently to him while scanning the Google pages, he pointed at one of the pictures there with excitement and proved to me that, that was the picture he saw in the blog. So me, gettin' so curious about it, looked at it closely and was amaze by what I saw. A mummyfied fairy found in Derbyshire. Upon seeing it, I never really doubted at that fairy evidence.For I am a believer of fairies existence in our world.I do love fairies.Because for me, everytime I see some fairies on movies or even in pictures, I find it all so magical, yet kinda weird. I know for some who'll get the chance of seeing the picture above will only say "It's just a trick!" Ok, I won't force you guys to believe in it. It's just that I wanted people to think of, that in life, FANTASY AND REALITY can still somehow meet paths and can create amazing discoveries. *wink!* =')  Love, one of the questions we have attempted to answer in more than one way. This only shows that it is quite impossible to grasp and comprehend the totality of its being. But we try, don't we? We try and find out loving and being loved. We try and find out by getting hurt. When you enter a relationship, when you commit yourself, you must always bear in mind that you are also sharing a part of yourself to a stranger who by mere chance or destined fate you happened to like and love. In doing so, you take the risk, a GREAT RISK. He is different, that's why you not expect him to be like you; To possess the same thoughts; To win the same emotions. You love him because HE IS HE and HE IS NOT YOU. This being so, you must learn to accept him in his totality as a person. Growth is brought about by your indifference which is one way to another cultivates the relationship. It is also important to remember that trust is a vital element in any relationship. UNCONDITIONAL TRUST, NO IF's NO BUT's. When you love, HONESTLY LOVE, then you must be willing to sacrifice. There are times when hurts go so deep, when the pain is almost unbearable, when you are about to surrender. BUT LOVING IS NOT GIVING UP EASILY. It is being there when all have gone. When there is very little strength left. When there is too much to stand. LOVING IS TRUSTING, LOVING IS LETTING BE. There is really no difference between the "as a matter of fact" way and the "romantic" way. You might just be in a different plane of understanding that maybe a cause of his misinterpretations. If he says he is honest with you, then you don't kill yourself by saying that he is not. HOW DID YOU KNOW? His past experience is not enough to doubt him. Please do not measure the exchange. Just BE HONEST with each other and HAVE AN OPEN CHANNEL OF COMMUNICATION CONSTANTLY WHERE THERE IS FREE SHARING OF IDEAS. No if's. no but's... Just LOVE. Nobody promised you a rose but you are a promise. Get the best out of life. LOVE AND GET HURT. GET HURT AND LEARN. LEARN AND LOVE AGAIN. It's a cycle. Experience the cycle and feel like you're in the circle. (hehe hantod malipong ka)LOL! Wednesday, September 5, 2007  Philippines is known because of its richness in natural resources. From luscious forests, to lofty mountains and even from smoky mountains. We all have those. And probably, our country will rise if only we'll know how to use our natural resources "rightly". Mining- The process or business of extracting ore or minerals from the ground; The process of digging under an enemy emplacement or fortification to destroy it by explosives, cause it to collapse, or gain access to it for an attack.The process of laying explosive mines. Mining is important in our country. That's a given quote. In Benguet, where it is a well-known source of golds and other mineral deposits, another issue put in place- CHILD LABOR REIGNS! Children ages 3 and up are already working at mining sites.Instead of going to school and or simply enjoying the life of being a child, just like playing, their bodies are soak in mud, their lungs are prone to danger and their skin bein' exposed under the cruel heat of the sun, searching for mineral deposits just to earn money to support their needs for everyday of their existence. Their early life has been snatched from them. Another fact is that mining became the source of income of the father, mother, daughters/sons, grandparents, aunts/uncles, grandchildren. Mining in Benguet is now a family enterprise. Another sad truth: As what I've mentioned, mining is important in our country. But, our government is NOT TRULY concerned about our nature, as well as with Filipinos. Our government's main concern is perhaps, the FOREIGN MINING COMPANIES. I really get irritated about it.Especially when I heard about the Republic Act that has been implemented which focuses on the permit bein given to any foreign mining companies to allow them to own an area in the Philippines in which they can legalized mining. So irritating! With that, I really can say that our government is not truly concern about our nature! Ok, let's say that it is really for the uprising of our economic status. But the heck!, did our government have the nerve of analyzing about what will happen after the massive destruction?!! I raise my middle finger to the appointed Secretary of DENR, former Mayor of Manila Lito Atienza! I'm really upset and irritated when I saw his interview in one of those TV documentary programs. He highlighted in his statement-that Philippines is truly rich in natural resources, and in order for our economic status to rise, we must use it. He understands what our President would try to imply, that's why that act has been implemented.And that IT IS FOR THE POOR PEOPLE. waaaaaaaah!! jerk! The hell with him! How could he?!! Helping to save our country from poverty, with EYES WIDE SHUT!! Why can't he notice the effects brought about by massive destruction caused by some foreign mining companies in our country??!!! From the floods. Diminishing mountain ranges. Unsheltered families. Ruined farms. Natural waters been contaminated!! ARE THOSE NOT YET ENOUGH TO DUMPED THAT ACT??!!! All has its ending.Sad endings could be. When will be the time when the government won't allow foreign companies to alienate our natural resources??!! WHEN ALL WILL BE GONE??!! I salute to the Puerto Princesa, Palawan Mayor : Hon. Edward Hagedorn, for not allowing mining in his province. He left this words in public, "Give me a healthy forest, wealthy and healthy people AFTER THE MASSIVE DESTRUCTION. If you can give me those, I might as well change my mind and allow mining to be done in my province." He's using his power to be able to protect the real treasures of his land. And I'm glad to know that there are still leaders who are truly concern about our natural resources. I'm a 19 year old citizen of this nation. I know that my eyes are wide open about the status quo in our economy. I do understand better from worst. I love this country. I love my life. And I love God's creations as well. I am just scared about the future events if acts like this will still resume. I do understand that we need development. But I do hope that the development that we are aiming WON'T BE THE REASON OF WAKING UP ONE DAY AND REALIZING THAT NOTHING HAS ALREADY LEFT WITH US! .. Tuesday, September 4, 2007  Five years from now. 2012. I am already in a studio. having my tapings, left and right tapings. =') Busy schedules raging in. Mall tours and fan's club day activities. Autograph signings from a crowded fans, who also wish to hand shake and hug me. Five years from now. 2012. I am launching my Music Album with MYMP. Gin Blossoms,3doorsdown,Akon. Various artists who wish to have their duet-album with ME! Five years from now. 2012. You are already watching me in my TV documentary program. Delivering the facts and opinions of some matters being discussed. Gaining the top rank for Top 10 Best Global Documentary Program. Five years from now. 2012. I am with BILL GATES. We are probably having our private conversation, pleasing me to be a part of their team. Five years from now. 2012. I am already enjoying my luxuries. Riding with my expensive cars. dazzling jewelries. Flooded clothes and apparels. Latest gadgets. Five years from now. 2012. I am a well-known Newscaster. Where no one can ever beat me. ='p Five years from now. 2012. HE'S ALREADY HERE WITH ME. (wahahaha) |
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