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Just last Saturday, September 29, 2007, I wasn't really feeling well.
I'm suffering from colds and flew and my head was quite aching because of "over-sleeping" hehe. I just really doesn't know what to do and I really get bored that time. I turned the television on, then turned it off again, went back to my room, read, stop reading, stuffs like that. I really doesn't know what to do at that time. I even kept on changing my cellphone casing.I wanted to text my other friends but I don't have any cellphone load at all.
Around 6 pm, my mother was cooking dinner for us and she told me to buy "paminta". So, I hurried on and I even got my coin purse and spent my last penny for a cellphone load. Even though its not really necessary to reload, still I did. Around 8 pm, somebody missed call me. And at that time, I was on my bedroom and was about to take a rest. I texted the unknown number and asked who he is. Immediately the recipient replied and said "Lot, vanjo ni..pwede ka mka return call dri..Mghulat ko, pwde karon daun? ", those were the exact words he typed in, hehe. Upon reading that message, I really over reacted. I don't know if its really true or was it just another foolish stuff bein' played over by some people who are really crazy. But beyond that, I believe it's him. The way he texts and the letter L which is always been in capital form is really his style of texting. I believe its him, BUT I JUST CAN'T BELIEVE IT! (hehe did you get what I mean?!).I never expected that he'll text me on that day. I was running to my sister and let her read the text message and she too can't believe in it. I was crying.Crying for joy and other unexplainable feelings I felt within me.My hands were even shaking when I was making my reply to that message telling him to wait for a while because I'll be purchasing another load to be able to make a return call.Because my load at that time is only for text purposes (you know the GAANTEXT10 haha).
Thanks to my friend ASHBURY and even to my cousin ATE RACHEL for providing me the load I needed. Because during those time, I really can't afford a load because I've already spent all my money.
And finally, I was able to hear his voice.
Vanjo's voice.The one I love. The one that I've been longing to be here with me again. VAN JOSHUA FLORES. ='p
Unexplainable feelings, mixed emotions, UNEXPECTED moment of the day. But indeed, one of the happiest.
We talked for about 8 minutes and within that span of time, I let him feel how much I love him and how much I'm willing to still wait for him and vice versa =').After the call, we even got the chance to exchange messages.Just few text messages.But those messages are enough for me to be truly happy.
He's assuring me over and over again that he'll come back to me.And I'm really glad about that assurances. ='p
It really soothes me.

I so much love that man. Being together with each other might be impossible but that will never really be a reason for me to forget him and just throw away the promises I left him.

I love vanjoshua flores. ='p
And that day, gives me enough strength to wait for him.

(for those who doesn't know, vanjoshua flores is my boyfriend and is now having his 4-year-training at Phil.National Police Academy, Camp Mariano Silang Cavite. It's his first year of training there and first years are called as "PLEBES" or "PLEBO" and are not allowed to use cellphones and its really seldom for them to communicate with their loved-ones.)

hehehe pasagdi na lng ko people huh, sa mga makabasa ani na entry, over react lng jud ata ko but Im really happy.. huhu

In the altar of matrimony, the priest said "Now, you are united as one.. let no man put asunder.. For richer or for poorer, in sickness and in health, till death do us part, etc.."
These are the commitments that each couple vowed to each other during a wedding ceremony. And as they seal the marital knot with a kiss, the couple signed the papers that will put their single blessedness to a halt.

But nowadays, we can see a lot of unfaithful husbands and wives.The philandering husbands maintaining several mistresses and 2nd families or more.In the news there are a lot of women caught by their respective husbands playing with fire, some even with their "kumpare", old flame, friend or even brother-in-law. Even some movie stars and celebrities change partners as often as they want to. As if it becomes a natural thing.

What drive them to be unfaithful?

Some says the fault lies in the nagger wife, the drunkard husband, attitude differences or just fall out of love or no longer happy with the relationship.
Are these reasons enough for one to find a new love or lust?

What is happening?
Have we lose our morals?
Did we give somebody the slip to invade this in our society?
Did our society allow this to develop in our midst?
Is this the legacy that we will leave to our children and the future generation?

Divorce, legal separation and annulments cases filed are increasing.
Most of the reasons given are deception, psychological incapacity, etc.But before the wed, there are a lot of seminars to be taken as part of the marriage licensing requirements.One of this is pre-cana or marriage counseling, where the couple is prepared and advised of what they are into, a lifetime commitment. Either you have been engaged long enough or short term, it doesn't matter. You will only know thoroughly your partner once you lived with him or her. Of course, the good side came before and during the engagement and the bad came after the wedding, but you married this somebody for life as sanctioned by the laws of the land and blessed by the Lord above. I don't argue with some who said, "what's the use of continuing the relationship if it doesn't work."

You just have to accept the best and the worst of him/her.
Just remember all the rosy days in your married life and the fruits that were born out of this union...
..your children..
and you will live happily ever after.. =')

I was surfing the net yesterday looking for fairies images when my friend Mark, sat down beside me and asked what I'm doing.I said, "nangita ko ug fairies na mga pictures", (I'm looking for pictures of fairies).He then exclaimed, "Nag blog hunt ko the other day bah, then nakakita ko atong isa ka blog na naay "fairy" na topic.kuyaw kaayo tong picture didto sa fairy kay kanang tinuod jud gni sya.As in! " (I was having a blog hunt the other day, then I saw one blog and one of the topic of that blog is about fairies.The picture of the fairy there is real.)

As I was listening intently to him while scanning the Google pages, he pointed at one of the pictures there with excitement and proved to me that, that was the picture he saw in the blog.

So me, gettin' so curious about it, looked at it closely and was amaze by what I saw.

A mummyfied fairy found in Derbyshire.

Upon seeing it, I never really doubted at that fairy evidence.For I am a believer of fairies existence in our world.I do love fairies.Because for me, everytime I see some fairies on movies or even in pictures, I find it all so magical, yet kinda weird.

I know for some who'll get the chance of seeing the picture above will only say "It's just a trick!" Ok, I won't force you guys to believe in it. It's just that I wanted people to think of, that in life, FANTASY AND REALITY can still somehow meet paths and can create amazing discoveries.

*wink!* =')

Love, one of the questions we have attempted to answer in more than one way.
This only shows that it is quite impossible to grasp and comprehend the totality of its being.

But we try, don't we?

We try and find out loving and being loved.

We try and find out by getting hurt.

When you enter a relationship, when you commit yourself, you must always bear in mind that you are also sharing a part of yourself to a stranger who by mere chance or destined fate you happened to like and love.

In doing so, you take the risk, a GREAT RISK.

He is different, that's why you not expect him to be like you;

To possess the same thoughts;

To win the same emotions.

You love him because HE IS HE and HE IS NOT YOU.

This being so, you must learn to accept him in his totality as a person.

Growth is brought about by your indifference which is one way to another cultivates the relationship.

It is also important to remember that trust is a vital element in any relationship.

UNCONDITIONAL TRUST, NO IF's NO BUT's.

When you love, HONESTLY LOVE, then you must be willing to sacrifice.

There are times when hurts go so deep, when the pain is almost unbearable, when you are about to surrender.

BUT LOVING IS NOT GIVING UP EASILY.

It is being there when all have gone.

When there is very little strength left.

When there is too much to stand.

LOVING IS TRUSTING, LOVING IS LETTING BE.

There is really no difference between the "as a matter of fact" way and the "romantic" way.

You might just be in a different plane of understanding that maybe a cause of his misinterpretations.

If he says he is honest with you, then you don't kill yourself by saying that he is not.

HOW DID YOU KNOW?

His past experience is not enough to doubt him.

Please do not measure the exchange.

Just BE HONEST with each other and HAVE AN OPEN CHANNEL OF COMMUNICATION CONSTANTLY WHERE THERE IS FREE SHARING OF IDEAS.

No if's. no but's...

Just LOVE.

Nobody promised you a rose but you are a promise.

Get the best out of life.

LOVE AND GET HURT.

GET HURT AND LEARN.

LEARN AND LOVE AGAIN.

It's a cycle.

Experience the cycle and feel like you're in the circle.

(hehe hantod malipong ka)LOL!

Philippines is known because of its richness in natural resources.
From luscious forests, to lofty mountains and even from smoky mountains.
We all have those.
And probably, our country will rise if only we'll know how to use our natural resources "rightly".

Mining- The process or business of extracting ore or minerals from the ground; The process of digging under an enemy emplacement or fortification to destroy it by explosives, cause it to collapse, or gain access to it for an attack.The process of laying explosive mines.

Mining is important in our country.
That's a given quote.

In Benguet, where it is a well-known source of golds and other mineral deposits, another issue put in place-
CHILD LABOR REIGNS!

Children ages 3 and up are already working at mining sites.Instead of going to school and or simply enjoying the life of being a child, just like playing, their bodies are soak in mud, their lungs are prone to danger and their skin bein' exposed under the cruel heat of the sun, searching for mineral deposits just to earn money to support their needs for everyday of their existence.
Their early life has been snatched from them.

Another fact is that mining became the source of income of the father, mother, daughters/sons, grandparents, aunts/uncles, grandchildren.
Mining in Benguet is now a family enterprise.

Another sad truth:
As what I've mentioned, mining is important in our country.
But, our government is NOT TRULY concerned about our nature, as well as with Filipinos.
Our government's main concern is perhaps, the FOREIGN MINING COMPANIES.

I really get irritated about it.Especially when I heard about the Republic Act that has been implemented which focuses on the permit bein given to any foreign mining companies to allow them to own an area in the Philippines in which they can legalized mining.
So irritating!
With that, I really can say that our government is not truly concern about our nature!

Ok, let's say that it is really for the uprising of our economic status.
But the heck!, did our government have the nerve of analyzing about what will happen after the massive destruction?!!

I raise my middle finger to the appointed Secretary of DENR, former Mayor of Manila Lito Atienza!
I'm really upset and irritated when I saw his interview in one of those TV documentary programs.
He highlighted in his statement-that Philippines is truly rich in natural resources, and in order for our economic status to rise, we must use it.
He understands what our President would try to imply, that's why that act has been implemented.And that IT IS FOR THE POOR PEOPLE.

waaaaaaaah!! jerk! The hell with him!
How could he?!!
Helping to save our country from poverty, with EYES WIDE SHUT!!
Why can't he notice the effects brought about by massive destruction caused by some foreign mining companies in our country??!!!

From the floods.
Diminishing mountain ranges.
Unsheltered families.
Ruined farms.
Natural waters been contaminated!!

ARE THOSE NOT YET ENOUGH TO DUMPED THAT ACT??!!!

All has its ending.Sad endings could be.
When will be the time when the government won't allow foreign companies to alienate our natural resources??!!
WHEN ALL WILL BE GONE??!!

I salute to the Puerto Princesa, Palawan Mayor : Hon. Edward Hagedorn, for not allowing mining in his province.
He left this words in public,
"Give me a healthy forest, wealthy and healthy people AFTER THE MASSIVE DESTRUCTION. If you can give me those, I might as well change my mind and allow mining to be done in my province."

He's using his power to be able to protect the real treasures of his land.
And I'm glad to know that there are still leaders who are truly concern about our natural resources.

I'm a 19 year old citizen of this nation.
I know that my eyes are wide open about the status quo in our economy.
I do understand better from worst.
I love this country.
I love my life.
And I love God's creations as well.
I am just scared about the future events if acts like this will still resume.
I do understand that we need development.
But I do hope that the development that we are aiming WON'T BE THE REASON OF WAKING UP ONE DAY AND REALIZING THAT NOTHING HAS ALREADY LEFT WITH US!

....

Five years from now.
2012.
I am already in a studio.
having my tapings, left and right tapings. =')
Busy schedules raging in.
Mall tours and fan's club day activities.
Autograph signings from a crowded fans, who also wish to hand shake and hug me.

Five years from now.
2012.
I am launching my Music Album with MYMP.
Gin Blossoms,3doorsdown,Akon.
Various artists who wish to have their duet-album with ME!

Five years from now.
2012.
You are already watching me in my TV documentary program.
Delivering the facts and opinions of some matters being discussed.
Gaining the top rank for Top 10 Best Global Documentary Program.

Five years from now.
2012.
I am with BILL GATES.
We are probably having our private conversation,
pleasing me to be a part of their team.

Five years from now.
2012.
I am already enjoying my luxuries.
Riding with my expensive cars.
dazzling jewelries.
Flooded clothes and apparels.
Latest gadgets.

Five years from now.
2012.
I am a well-known Newscaster.
Where no one can ever beat me. ='p

Five years from now.
2012.
HE'S ALREADY HERE WITH ME.

(wahahaha)

"If the truth hurts most of us so badly that we don't want to say it, it hurts even more those who dare to say it.."
It is a two-edged sword, often dangerous to the user.
Strong and courageous would really describe an eagle. I was really fascinated as I saw it flapped its wings from the sky. As I was taking time looking at it, I remember the story of my friend about an eagle and a caterpillar. They lived in to two different worlds yet they managed to keep their love in flame. They never lacked time for themselves despite the consequences. for all they think about is the survival of their relationship and so the story goes...

they agreed that the caterpillar would stay on top of the leaf so that as the eagle fly by, they would see each other. until one day...

I got into my fantasy but the eagle brought me back to reality. He was everything i wanted to be, strong, brave, carefree but lonely. His actions and words told me something that he doesn't need to tell. He had some unhappy stories of his life and I was willing to listen. My heart went out to him. What a sad eagle, i thought, almost everyday he would visit me on the leaf and we would talk about anything and everything that had happen to us. I then assured myself that even though we are worlds apart, we have the same dreams and interests. When problems and trials came, we never left each other's side for we knew that is is our way of showing each other's presence.

All we really need is time for each other. There came time when we needed to be free, meet new friends and face new horizons in life. Sometimes, even though i want to build up my cocoon, i was thinking of him and wait for the time that he would be there. Its nice to feel others presence and love but nothing can compare the closeness that we shared. Suddenly, i was no longer afraid to hope for love for my eagle assured me of his love. He would even fit me into his busy scheduled although i can feel that everything on him was already pressured. Maybe i live in that dream for sometime. you can't blame anyone when love occurs.

One day, i went out for a walk, i heard a friend calling my name and wanted to tell something. she told me that how could i see my real importance if I'm stuck up faking for someone who's already betraying me. I never believed her for all I knew is that my eagle won't do such thing. I went back to that leaf and waited for him, but he never showed up. That didn't build up my doubts for i trusted him.
I guess, his words and his undying promises of love carried me away. I can't even dare get mad at him.

At last, I saw him but something changed. He's not the same person i used to know, he doesn't know that i missed him maybe because of this stupid pride.

How could he be cruel?
Trying to protect me from the hurt but actually caused me so much pain.

I didn't know whom to believe.
It seems someone i trust, someone i loved has already used me up.
now, i am wide-awake by the reality.
Its not me that he loved, but my weakness and my stupidity.
What a romantic fool have i been? and my world collapse.
Lately, I found out that eagle do have sharp beaks, they would really tear and leave you bleeding.

I guess, nobody would still want to love and be left at the corner not knowing where to stand.

Like the story of the eagle and the caterpillar, how tragic it has been.
Having a long lasting relationship does not end with sweet "I love you", but by trust.

Billions of kids all over the world have been bewitch by the enchantment brought about by Harry Potter.
oh! not to mention adults, too-who go gaga over this thing.

I admit that I am one of those billions who craves for the next plot of Harry Potter's risky and magical experiences.
and up to now, I am still soOoOo upset not to view the book 5 being' shown on cinemas. ='(

People in more than 30 countries are just wild about Harry, their bespectacled hero who discovers in his eleventh birthday that he is a wizard.
for the few who doesn't know:
Harry Potter inherited his magical powers from his parents who have been slaughtered by the evil wizard Lord Voldemort.
Harry, who bears a lighting scar on his forehead (also Voldemort's handiwork), then has a series of white-knuckle adventures at Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry. This is housed in a remote Scottish Castle where mail is delivered to pupils by their owls.

J.K Rowling-the author of the book, has so-enchanted children with her imagination and a vivid cast- redoubtable Hermione Granger and plucky Ron Weasley, Harry's sidekicks, along with sinister Professor Snape and Hagrid, the endearing gamekeeper who likes a drink and has a passion for hatching dragons.

**JK Rowling- Joanne Katherin Rowling, was born in 1965 at Chipping Sodburgh, South Gloucestire- a fitting birthplace for someone who loves strange but believable names.
A writer from the age of six, with 2 unpublished novels in her drawer, she was on a train in 1990 when Harry walked into her mind fully formed.
She spent the next 5 years constructing the plots of seven books, one for every year of his secondary-school life.
She's married to a journalist but the marriage lasted barely a year but produced baby Jessica.

I am truly amazed by how JK Rowling renders her stories. from the astonishing places, to the strange names and up to the breathtaking adventures of the characters. And even those shivering secrets been discovered.
And oh! those marvelous spells being casted, i love all of those.
And with that, it makes me wonder,
"WHAT IF IT'S REAL?" and
"WHAT IF I WORK FROM THERE?"
Come to think of it, what if there's really a Hogwarts at the other dimension of this world?!
What if Lord Voldemort really exists, and he's been scheming for the next assault to Harry?
What if the owls we see somewhere (wag isali ang mga paniki LOL!),really deliver mails for the students in Hogwarts.?!

hmmm..do i sound as if i get so carried away by the story?! ='p
Well, those are just some of my imaginations in which somehow i try to connect in our real world.
just then a proof of how bewitching JK Rowling's stories are.

Fraternity. Sorority. a brotherly fellowship.
and by extension deep friendship camaraderie.

Brotherly- pertaining to or like a brother; showing kindness.

Most college universities have their brotherly organizations.
Fraternity for boys. Sorority for girls. or could be a combination.
But what's really the goal of this formed organizations?

I've got some friends who engaged themselves in organizations like those.
and well, some gave me convincing answers of what's really their organization's goals are.
here are some :

*to gain self-confidence.
*to win friends.
*to socialize with people of different species.
*to be away from harmful elements of this world, such as engaging to prohibited drugs.

Take note of the fourth answer.
to be away from harmful elements.
i heard the news about a UP graduating student named Chris Anthony Mendez who engaged himself in a fraternity .
he just died because of the brutal hazing being done to him.
he died!
I've search for the definition of "hazing", and this what popped out:
"To play practical jokes upon".
practical jokes.

is death a practical JOKE?!

IS DEATH REALLY A PART OF A FRATERNITY/SORORITY??!

its so alarming, because as what i have observed,
many youngsters are engaging themselves in fraternities/sororities.
many of them aimed at gaining self confidence and winning friends around.
none of them for sure aimed at reaching the point of death.

is "brutal hazing" really a ritual portion for the new comers?!

I've been hearing lots of incidence like this,
and it really give me goosebumps.
i might be acting so corny about it, but i guess its just one of my simple way of showing my concern to those people who are planning to enter organizations
who have "brotherly" goals..

don't dare end up your life with a hit from a "paddle"..

☺bLithe☺

"it's the good girls who keep diaries,
the bad girls never have the time."

blah! ☺

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