LotZ-noOk

April 11 is my tagged birthdate. and evrytime this day comes, all i ever wanted is to be with the people who mean so much to me. because these people are the reasons why i can say that i'm living my life to the fullest.
My family, my friends, my relatives and my boyfriend. and fortunately, i've been with almost all of them when my 20th birthday came. yes, im now 20 years old..
hmm..i think that's not too bad. hehe They always tell me that i don't look like a 20-year old lady. probably because of my height and my "baby-look-face". haha

All through my birthdays, this one is really i consider as the most memorable..why? because this was just the moment where my uncles,aunts cousins, lola, good friends and vanjo (my boyfriend) and especially my family were together.Enjoying the night. and that moment was the only time i introduced formally my boyfriend to my father. because i dont just introduced guys to my father.I get nervous everytime i do.Actually, i've introduced my past boyfriend to my father when i turned 18, but it was an informal introduction and i was really forced to do it. and i was not really ready that time to introduced my past boyfriend to my family,since im still not into the idea that i wanted that guy to be forever with. but this time, when i introduced vanjo to my dad, its as if everything goes out well and i was not nervous at all.i feel proud about it. fortunately, my dad accepted the fact, calmly. and i was really amazed..and thankful with that. and i consider it as the greatest gift ever given to me.
I'm really happy. and my 20 years of existence taught me to become brave and to understand life and its lessons.
God is really there all through my existence. and i know, as i go along with my life's journey, God will still and always be there.. unconditionally..
Praise God. ^^,

computer,programs, algorithms, sleepless nights, incomplete grades..
i was an IT stuedent before.and ive been really experiencing those stuffs ive mentioned above almost everyday of my life as an IT scholar. the term "nosebleeding" is the lingo of the class everytime we do out our projects, assignments, quizzes and exams. but somehow, i do have fun. doing crazy stuffs with my co-students are irreplaceable. but ive decided to stop the fight.not because i really can't do it anymore but because i just cant view where im at.and my family is really expecting so much about me. my decision of transferring to another course and school is one of those i consider as tough decision.its not easy you know, bein in the course for almost 3 years and suddenly you've finally just realized that you dont really belong in it. the heck!!
time wasted, especially the efforts ive exerted.im not a looser. i may be a loser for some people but the hell i care with their dumb judgements. .
right now, im into business administration major in financial management. im living my life as one of the uicians.and i can say that ive adjusted to the surroundings, to the people and even to my new field.

its not easy making a decision.but as long as you can sleep well at night, that's the right thing to realize that you've made the right one.. ^^,

tomorrow?
is it really the day i've been waiting for?! i cant hardly believe it. its getting nearer. *sigh!* im not excited.im just nervous! as in! its like my heart is pumping out. im nervous because...im scared! scared he might not be the same person i used to know. scared he might tell me something that would end up everything. especially these feelings that keeps on bothering me every now and then. my entire waiting moment taught me to be patient and hopeful.especially taught me te be brave.brave enough to handle such consequences. i got my phone and checked it out if his phone is on. and fortunately, it was ringing. so i texted him and sadly, ive got no reply. ive got a lot of questions.and again, questions that bother me.same issues just like before. i try so hard to look at every brighter side of these dark situations. and evry time i do, i usually end up with a shattered heart and hope. ive got no clue on what will really happen. all i know is that im bounded with each others love and promises. that sooner, he'll still be the same guy i used to love and who loves me in return. that very same guy who promises one thing, that "he'll come back to me".

marriage is a girl's greatest dream. and i am one of those girls who loves to reach that thought someday. being with the guy you dreamed of having..for the rest of your life..nothing beats that feeling.
everytime i ended up my relationship with someone, i always and really look forward for a new beginning.and in every hope of starting a life again, i silently pray that i'd finally meet him along the way.

People do really get tired.tired of handling pains.if that's waht it takes to be truly brave, i'd prefer to be weak.weak enough to be cuddled by someone. weak enough to be held by someone.weak enough to accepted by that one. than to be strong and acually really don't own anyone..

[i wrote this one when the moment my boyfriend and i will see each other again.that time, i really am trapped in the melancholy. but the moment we get the chance to see each other again, all i wrote here proved me wrong.and i am so happy that we are getting stronger.. ^^,)

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"it's the good girls who keep diaries,
the bad girls never have the time."

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