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It was an unusual day for me and for my batch mates as we marched through the aisle of the hall, dressed in white robes on March 2005. For us, it symbolized the finale of high school life. But beyond the pleasure I felt, perplexity was clothing my mind. As we know, as a fresh high school graduate, you must be able to decide on matters which deal about your next life: the tertiary level and preparing for a future profession. I need to decide as soon as possible. I need to follow up which university I must embark upon. Fortunately, choosing the university I decided to enroll at was a bit easy.

I was qualified to study at a state university, and decided to take up Information Technology. Even though I don’t have enormous background about that course, I still took the challenge. Being in a college life is really a tough one. That is where you will gain the personal involvement of the actual world, of grief and fiasco, of gaiety and triumphs. I did quite well during my first and second years of learning. I even got a scholarship grant which really helped me a lot. I was really blessed to have that grant. I was enjoying the prerogatives of being a scholar. I even remembered the hassle-free enrolment procedure I always had, because scholars don’t need to fall in “dead-end” line over the cashier and wait endlessly for your turn.

But then, as I continued the locomotion towards my field, I suddenly felt the arduousness of my major subjects. The difficulty and the pressures brought about by my subjects and my “high expectation” professors were some reasons why I was declining.
As months passed by, I realized that shifting to another course has become a dilemma. The thought of leaving the university also came on my mind.

I was really fascinated of becoming a Newscaster. Mass Communication was my desired course either. But unfortunately, MassComm is not offered in the university I was into. I took up Information Technology because that was the course I hurriedly decided to enroll at. Not knowing that efficiency in logic and arithmetic are also much needed in that program, and those are actually my feebleness.

Unlike other well-off students who could wish to transfer from one dimension to another, I myself need to think profoundly about it because there are many things to be considered. Considering that I will be losing my scholarship grant, plus the fact that transferring from another university and pursuing my MassComm affection would really allow me to consign such torments upon the financial status of our family.

I do not know what exactly to do. I was puzzled over my circumstances. I was losing my grip. Instead of finding ways to free myself from being screwed up, I procrastinate my time on some online games and eventually ended up being hooked at it.
I lose my involvement in my studies and my frailty and confusions were slowly decaying my potentials.
Until one day, I finally put an end to my stagnant plight. The thought of wanting to reach for great things in life conveyed me to decide of doing what I needed to do. I left the university and began as a neophyte to another journey.
March, April and May are the season of marching through the stage for a diploma.
Dressed in a black robe, a student will savor the moment of being proud of one’s self for such an achievement. And I am supposed to be, a graduate of batch 2009.

This June, instead of starting for a board exam review or starting for a new career in life, I am going to continue my sailing as a junior student in another university.

As what my favorite author quoted out, “dalawang dekada ka lang mag aaral, kung ‘di mo pa pagsisikapan, higit limang dekada ng paghihirap ang kapalit…”
{You are just going to study for almost two decades, if you will not strive hard for it, more than five decades of poverty will serve as an exchange...)

Two years from now, I know I will be one of those proud graduates.
Two years and a month from now, I will going to have the job I have been dreaming of.
Two years from now, I will really become what I want myself to be.

Planning and deciding for the future should be our priority. And acting on it will lead us to our goals. Believing in our self in spite of adversity is a great weapon for surviving the trials. If only I just believed in my abilities during those confusing times I had, I could have graduated on time.

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