LotZ-noOk

"If the truth hurts most of us so badly that we don't want to say it, it hurts even more those who dare to say it.."
It is a two-edged sword, often dangerous to the user.
Strong and courageous would really describe an eagle. I was really fascinated as I saw it flapped its wings from the sky. As I was taking time looking at it, I remember the story of my friend about an eagle and a caterpillar. They lived in to two different worlds yet they managed to keep their love in flame. They never lacked time for themselves despite the consequences. for all they think about is the survival of their relationship and so the story goes...

they agreed that the caterpillar would stay on top of the leaf so that as the eagle fly by, they would see each other. until one day...

I got into my fantasy but the eagle brought me back to reality. He was everything i wanted to be, strong, brave, carefree but lonely. His actions and words told me something that he doesn't need to tell. He had some unhappy stories of his life and I was willing to listen. My heart went out to him. What a sad eagle, i thought, almost everyday he would visit me on the leaf and we would talk about anything and everything that had happen to us. I then assured myself that even though we are worlds apart, we have the same dreams and interests. When problems and trials came, we never left each other's side for we knew that is is our way of showing each other's presence.

All we really need is time for each other. There came time when we needed to be free, meet new friends and face new horizons in life. Sometimes, even though i want to build up my cocoon, i was thinking of him and wait for the time that he would be there. Its nice to feel others presence and love but nothing can compare the closeness that we shared. Suddenly, i was no longer afraid to hope for love for my eagle assured me of his love. He would even fit me into his busy scheduled although i can feel that everything on him was already pressured. Maybe i live in that dream for sometime. you can't blame anyone when love occurs.

One day, i went out for a walk, i heard a friend calling my name and wanted to tell something. she told me that how could i see my real importance if I'm stuck up faking for someone who's already betraying me. I never believed her for all I knew is that my eagle won't do such thing. I went back to that leaf and waited for him, but he never showed up. That didn't build up my doubts for i trusted him.
I guess, his words and his undying promises of love carried me away. I can't even dare get mad at him.

At last, I saw him but something changed. He's not the same person i used to know, he doesn't know that i missed him maybe because of this stupid pride.

How could he be cruel?
Trying to protect me from the hurt but actually caused me so much pain.

I didn't know whom to believe.
It seems someone i trust, someone i loved has already used me up.
now, i am wide-awake by the reality.
Its not me that he loved, but my weakness and my stupidity.
What a romantic fool have i been? and my world collapse.
Lately, I found out that eagle do have sharp beaks, they would really tear and leave you bleeding.

I guess, nobody would still want to love and be left at the corner not knowing where to stand.

Like the story of the eagle and the caterpillar, how tragic it has been.
Having a long lasting relationship does not end with sweet "I love you", but by trust.

☺bLithe☺

"it's the good girls who keep diaries,
the bad girls never have the time."

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